I just attended an organizational meeting for the company I work for and we discussed... hold on... wait for it... we all love it... CHANGE!
At first, I had no idea what we would be discussing but when I realized we had a guest speaker that is when the fear began to sink in because we usually NEVER have a guest speaker and just have meetings to discuss how things are going with our work. That was when I first became uncomfortable, thinking "What is this going to be about? Are we going to be here longer than normal? Is this going to be boring?" All of my questions were quickly answered when the guest speaker, out of nowhere (it wasn't out of nowhere, I just wasn't paying attention and this definitely grabbed my attention) she said "Don't go calling anyone at your table an ignorant SLUT." I immediately found a spot for this woman in my heart, in my mind, and offered her up all of my attention. She made me feel comfortable instantly.
This woman took us on a journey through what change is... She referred to change as transition. It's not like we wake up one day and decide "I am going to change my entire bedroom TODAY." The change takes TIME, and we must put together action steps to get to our ultimate goal of the change we desire. For others, change slaps people in the face - for example, loosing a loved one unexpectedly; however, that immediate change than transfers itself into a transitional time. You have to transition into not having that person in your life anymore, not picking up the phone to dial their number that you'll never forget, and not having a tangible relationship with that person anymore. It's that transition time that is different for every single person. I don't transition through changing things in my life or having this changed in my life the same way that my best friend, boyfriend, mother, or some bum on the street does. I realized a lot today in this meeting, and immediately had so many reasons and explanations for everything I do, say, the way that I act in certain situations that I picked up the phone and rattled them off to my boyfriend. Poor guy, he probably thinks I'm nuts, but I found that in me expressing how I transition, it helps us to better understand one another or at least him to better understand me.
One thing I took away from this meeting/training, was that I needed to find out more about myself, who I am, and what I believe to better understand who I am and how I transition through life. Life is ever changing and it is so vital to not let yourself get in the way of the amazing changes that can take place. Just looking at who I was 10 years ago, in high school - a totally carefree, no strings attached to much, loving life, probably not doing things I should've been doing - I have changed SO much and in some really great and some not so great ways. One person in the group said that she journals... something I have never had an interest in doing, something that sounded boring and blah! But here I am, writing, writing, writing about what I've learned and look forward to this being a place that I can write my feelings about things happening in my life and to be able to share who I find out I am with people I love. These journal entries may be as simple as me saying at the end of the day if I was "Happy or Miserable" and a short sentence of why but I will make it a point to journal every. damn. day..
I tend to be like a clam - hard to open up, but once you can crack my strong shell and hold on everything inside, I might have some treasure to share with you... I hope (there goes the negative voices in my head... I'll explain that later).
“sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down”
At first, I had no idea what we would be discussing but when I realized we had a guest speaker that is when the fear began to sink in because we usually NEVER have a guest speaker and just have meetings to discuss how things are going with our work. That was when I first became uncomfortable, thinking "What is this going to be about? Are we going to be here longer than normal? Is this going to be boring?" All of my questions were quickly answered when the guest speaker, out of nowhere (it wasn't out of nowhere, I just wasn't paying attention and this definitely grabbed my attention) she said "Don't go calling anyone at your table an ignorant SLUT." I immediately found a spot for this woman in my heart, in my mind, and offered her up all of my attention. She made me feel comfortable instantly.
This woman took us on a journey through what change is... She referred to change as transition. It's not like we wake up one day and decide "I am going to change my entire bedroom TODAY." The change takes TIME, and we must put together action steps to get to our ultimate goal of the change we desire. For others, change slaps people in the face - for example, loosing a loved one unexpectedly; however, that immediate change than transfers itself into a transitional time. You have to transition into not having that person in your life anymore, not picking up the phone to dial their number that you'll never forget, and not having a tangible relationship with that person anymore. It's that transition time that is different for every single person. I don't transition through changing things in my life or having this changed in my life the same way that my best friend, boyfriend, mother, or some bum on the street does. I realized a lot today in this meeting, and immediately had so many reasons and explanations for everything I do, say, the way that I act in certain situations that I picked up the phone and rattled them off to my boyfriend. Poor guy, he probably thinks I'm nuts, but I found that in me expressing how I transition, it helps us to better understand one another or at least him to better understand me.
One thing I took away from this meeting/training, was that I needed to find out more about myself, who I am, and what I believe to better understand who I am and how I transition through life. Life is ever changing and it is so vital to not let yourself get in the way of the amazing changes that can take place. Just looking at who I was 10 years ago, in high school - a totally carefree, no strings attached to much, loving life, probably not doing things I should've been doing - I have changed SO much and in some really great and some not so great ways. One person in the group said that she journals... something I have never had an interest in doing, something that sounded boring and blah! But here I am, writing, writing, writing about what I've learned and look forward to this being a place that I can write my feelings about things happening in my life and to be able to share who I find out I am with people I love. These journal entries may be as simple as me saying at the end of the day if I was "Happy or Miserable" and a short sentence of why but I will make it a point to journal every. damn. day..
I tend to be like a clam - hard to open up, but once you can crack my strong shell and hold on everything inside, I might have some treasure to share with you... I hope (there goes the negative voices in my head... I'll explain that later).
you are treasure to me!
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